Guest Post | Cup of Jo

Hello A Step In the Journey friends! I’m Kristy over at Cup Of Jo and I’m honored Laura Beth is having me here today!! I don’t have to tell you how sweet she is or how uplifting and wonderful her blog is! {smile!!}
I’m visiting today to share my journey of infertility~ 
When we’re little girls we dress in frilly pink, sport sparkly high heals and wear terribly put on make up! We play babies and dream of being mommies of our own someday.  Everything at that age are wonderful fairy tales, unicorns and all our dreams coming true!
Then we become adults and not all of our fairy tales go according to plan…
When my husband and I decided the time was right to start a family, we never dreamed it would be so difficult. We tried for a year on our own and decided maybe we should turn to the doctors for some help. I knew I had endometrial issues in the past, but surly not to the the extreme I couldn’t get pregnant~right??!?. Sadly, that was the case. We met with several doctors and after{heads spinning}  we had a lot to think about! Clearly getting pregnant on our own was not in the cards! The question now was, do we do IVF? Adopt? How much will all of this cost? What was the best path for us?
After weighing out all our options we decided Invitrofertilization (IVF) was the route we were going to take. How hard could it be, women do it all the time??  Let me tell ya, much harder than I ever anticipated! It’s an emotional roller coaster and it can take a toll on ya! During this time you find yourself praying to God, looking for signs and praying for answers! I’m big on saying “everything happens for a reason”, but when the reason isn’t obvious, without faith and belief in “something bigger” up there in that big blue sky, it’s hard to keep things in perspective. When I began to feel a slip in Faith, doubt on something~ o.k., everything, I looked above. With all of the tears and prayers pouring out, a calm kept coming back in. I found myself not only praying to help us conceive, but for the strength to make it through if we didn’t.
We did 5 full  exhausting cycles of IVF all ending in disappointment. We needed to take a breather, get perspective and regroup. What was “His” plan for us?? We didn’t feel it was over…
So, we did some research , switched doctors, found a little something wrong with me, got it fixed and tried one more IVF cycle. This we agreed would be our last attempt…
So many times along the way I felt hopeless, frustrated, sad and flat out angry…why us? What have we done wrong? But then again, why not us??
Knowing God would help up through,
 lighten the “heavy” load.
This is such a wonderful poem to visit…
Footsteps in the sand
author unkown

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him
he looked back, at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
“LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you’d walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.”

The LORD replied:
“My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you,
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.” 

Ours story has a happy ending, but I’ve learned through our story and meeting so many other women along the way, that theirs didn’t end the same.  I believe God has a plan and purpose for everything and  miracles come in so many different ways and forms! 
Like an amazing blogger friend of mine said, who can relate way too much to my story,~
                                      “Pray hard, trust the Lord and expect a Miracle”
 Thanks again Laura Beth for having me and to everyone who stuck around to hear my story!!
                                                                     Hugs!!
                                                                            Kristy
                            
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Thanks Kristy for opening up about a struggle I know so many women face. I love hearing how you leaned on God. His will is good and perfect, and although we don’t always understand it we trust in it :o) So glad yours had the ending your were praying for!

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  1. Oh I can totally relate to your experience!! I too went through rounds of IVF, and we did have a happy ending as well. Infertility is such an emotional roller coaster, so many mixed emotions! It is an experience that most cannot understand unless you have traveled that path as well. I so happy for your happy ending too!!

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